SpoonFullofJelly

Enjoy Your Day Full of Sugar!

I believe that I have been losing friends over the past few years. I can not believe how our infertility has effected others. Hubby and I were standing in the hallway chatting with some friends when another couple walked up. That couple mentioned something from a group picnic they all attended. One of my friends quickly threw in "It was a get together for the kids." That meant to me that we were not invite because we don't have kids. Fast forward two years and Hubby and I have noticed that we have been excluded quite often. Parenthood has turned into a secret society that only the fertile or those who adopt are allowed to join. There are special events and even a secret language. I noticed that pride and gloating go hand and hand for parents and I can't do that unless I cross the bridge. Don't mention anything obvious or people will look like you are crazy. I worked in a day care for two years and taught English as a second language for two years to babies and t...

"Are you going to have a kid or what?" This was a comment said to me by the same little girl (mentioned months ago) from Church. She is eagerly waiting for us to adopt a child. She knew we mentioned it a little over a year ago and now she wants some action. I can't believe that we are being rushed by a 6 year old! This week I made the trek to the doctors office for the third IUI. My husband had a meeting and couldn't change the time. As I sat in the waiting room alone, I texted Mr. Mind back and forth on what was happening in the office. Once I got into the room, I was able to relax as I laid on the table. The nursed explained everything and five minute later she was done. The hope of a family began to take over. Love swelled in my heart and eyes. I couldn't believe that in 15 minutes I would be either on my way to be a mother or not. I cringed when the timer went off. I feared that I didn't get to stay long enough. I couldn't help but to think, does...

We have been on the hunt for another new place for two months now. We tolerated this apartment all winter and won't spend another winter in it. We spent so much time last summer picking what we thought was a family home. We wanted to bring our first born home here and hopefully our second if we hadn't bought a home by then. We were confronted with a host of lies and surprises since we moved in. What we failed to notice: 1. The landlords placed air fresheners all around the front door of the duplex and the hallway. We thought it was because they were painting. No, it was because the front porch contains (still there) a fire hazard worth of junk from the downstairs neighbor and friend. The friend (more on that later) finally cut up one urine soaked rug and washed two others that have hug outside all winter over the wood fence. YUCK! 2. No HEAT the first week of January. Did I ever mention that we live in Minnesota? We didn't have heat for a week and the landlord asked u...